Wednesday, January 27

Finding Joy


"Oh this has gotta be the good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life"

Sunday, January 24

Those Lonely Eyes Have Seen It All



When i think about Thailand. I can't help the feelings that erupt into my chest
pain.
the time where it all fell apart
the moment when everything changed
and they don't even realize it
everyone
that who I was before and who I was after are two completely different people
and nothing can ever fix that
that who I saw myself as, and who I realized I was, were far from the same
and all hope was lost
who knew that after all that planning and all that prep
I was the one who would need saving

Friday, January 22

Be There When I Wake Up

As the leaves crunch beneath my worn out soles
The distant thought of snow lingers in my mind
it was slow coming and fast leaving this year
my fault
I left
not it
the sun shines brighter than ever before as it hits the rooftops and explodes into the sky
my affair with the sun is far more satisfying than my affair with the snow.
The sun never fails me.
the sun never abandons me for what feels like forever
but the sun is not snow
and though the snow can be as cheap as these ski holidays
I have an uncontrollable desire to love what hurts me
snow
i'm sorry
forgive me

Sunday, January 17

New Place New Food


After successfully unpacking all of my boxes, and having no where to put my clothes but the floor, I have officially moved in and I couldn't be happier. I love the corner lot we live on, I love the city air, i even love the green lights on our very own kitchen appliances. I love that because its a basement suite its chilly and you need to layer up, and I especially love that I get to be with melissa and leanne every single day. What I don't love is Rickshaw Chinese Food. Before my mother left she took me and mel out for chinese and lets just say that it was less than par. Now my standards for chinese aren't very high. I mean I would like to be able to eat it without the puking till dawn effect afterwards, but other than that all I ask is for my chow mein to be slimy not puffy and my honey garlic pork not to be crunchy. is that too much? I think not. Oh Dragon Gate. how I miss you.

Sunday, January 10

Darling.. I don't know how to tell you this... But there's a Chinese family in our bathrrom


Cute. Perfect. Also, my favourite movie.. for right now.

I don't know if its the melancholy can't-stop-smiling-even-though-life-for-him-is-the-pits soundtrack, or the way it made me feel to watch someone else experience one-way love with no hope of return, or the immediate, "Of course I like you", accompanied with that sheepish adorable smile of Tom's. or maybe its just the fact that it has Zooey DeChannel in it and she is a total bitch. But something has got me screaming movie of the year from the rooftop.

It's funny really, because if the roles were reversed. and Summer was a man and Tom was a pathetic love sick female, nobody would think twice about the way summer leads tom on a whim with no intensions of becoming serious. The way she treats him like dirt and then takes a "large shit on his face, literally" It would seem normal, and no one would feel sorry for Tom. But Tom is a boy. And the heart breaker is a girl. and for some reason, this just doesn't sit well with people. For some reason, it makes people realize what we, the other side of the story, have been going through all these years.

500 Days Of Summer. Perfection that will have you relentlessly, inevitably, torturously in love.